Are You Questioning if it’s Love or Not?

I was recently in an eight month relationship with a man who I had known for 17 years. The last 10 of those 17 years I spent yearning for him. Praying God would give him to me. I would cry myself to sleep. Try to trick myself into believing that I really didn’t want him. Then, finally, the unbelievable happened.. the universe sent him to me! I was amazed. So happy. But I should have known better.

I was ALWAYS the one pursuing him. I was ALWAYS the one that wanted him. He never really showed any initiative unless he was lonely or bored. WHY didn’t I see these things then??!! I’ll tell you why. Because I WANTED HIM SO BADLY that my judgment was clouded.

About two months into our relationship, or whatever it was, we started arguing. We were complete opposites. And I couldn’t feel love from him and I couldn’t feel love growing from me. Four months in.. same thing. Although, we had said in a text a couple of times that we did love each other. But never out loud. Never to each other’s faces. It was so weird. And so awkward. I had never been in that type of relationship to where I had to wonder if the man actually even liked me, let alone loved me.

If you are sitting there right now, reading this and questioning whether he loves you or you love him or whatever the case may be.. just do everyone a favor and walk away. Love is one thing that should never be questioned and it’s one thing that everyone is deserving of. It will hurt to let go, but trust me.. real love does NOT leave you wondering.. EVER.

Be kind to yourself.


Diana Foxx

I share my content on here from my website: notyoureverydayfairytale.com I'm 36 years old. Mother of three older children. Business owner. Literally still learning life as I go.

7 Comments

musingsofmysoulbyeivine · April 23, 2018 at 9:55 am

Good one..

fullcircle · April 23, 2018 at 9:58 am

I believe that sometimes you just know. Despite what may make others question if what they are feeling is love, sometimes you just know. There’s no explanation and it might not make sense but the love exists. It’s there even when you wish it wasn’t.

praptibhuyan29 · April 23, 2018 at 11:19 am

O ….it is really good eye opener….but I fear to open my eyes

With The Dying Daisy · April 23, 2018 at 6:03 pm

You had no idea how bad I needed this. It’s funny how someone else’s eye-opener story becomes yours, too! Thank you so much.

    Diana Foxx · April 24, 2018 at 2:16 am

    I’m so glad I could help you. Seriously. That makes me happy. I hope you find peace. I know it’s a terrible feeling and you are not alone either, my friend.

With The Dying Daisy · April 23, 2018 at 6:04 pm

P.S. I’m sorry you went through this. You’re not alone. 😉

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