Why do I always expect the worst?
I just returned home from a trip out-of-town. I am so thankful that God provided traveling grace and that what was supposed to be a 4 hour flight delay was canceled and the flight left on time. God knows what He is doing. He took care of me. Even when I was notified of the delay, I was able to hold on to the hope that things would be ok and that I would make it home that day. I won’t lie, I was anxious, but I still had hope.
Even better, when I returned home, I received an email stating that I was being offered the job I recently interviewed for. Then the old me crept back in. I immediately wondered what would happen if I couldn’t do the job. What if I got sick? What if my dog didn’t want me away from home? What if I didn’t have any energy at the end of the day to give my dog the exercise she needs?
I hate thinking like this. It’s like I can’t just be in the moment, especially the positive moments. I couldn’t even celebrate. I thanked God, but then I began to worry again, not trusting Him. What is the saying? Where God guides, He provides. I need to remember that. I need to rejoice always because God is the reason and He is.
Isaiah 40:31 Amplified Bible (AMP)
31 But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] Will gain new strength and renew their power;
They will lift up their wings [and rise up close to God] like eagles [rising toward the sun];
They will run and not become weary,
They will walk and not grow tired.