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Welcome to Heartbreak

Welcome to Heartbreak

I cried.

I begged.

I promised I would change.

I poured my heart out.

I suffered alone.

How could you not want me back?

Why can’t you forgive me?

How could you be so cold?

How could you be so heartless?

Welcome to heartbreak.

The heartbreak of rejection.

The sadness of regret.

The pain of looking in the mirror.

Self-hatred.

Anxious days.

Depressed nights.

Through the pain, I learned how to be the lotus flower.

For the lotus flower grows in muddy waters.

Through suffering comes joy.

Through suffering comes peace.

Through suffering comes transformation.

No mud, no lotus.

My heart is now filled with gratitude.

Thank you for letting me suffer and grow.

Thank you for letting me go three years ago.

Thank you, Alicia.

Hope all is well.

With Aloha,

Johnny Hoffman

Backstory: 3 years ago in Feb 2015 my life changed forever. I finally told my fiance that I cheated on her. She left me that day. I felt heartbroken, fearful, and anxious. I had to sit with myself. Sit with the anxiety, pain, and loneliness. Sit with the self-hatred. Through that suffering, I found a new way of life. A one of meditation, mindfulness, and joy.


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Johnny Hoffman

My intention is to inspire a simple, healthy, and authentic way of life. I'm 28 years old and live on Maui. You can find me on Facebook, Instagram, and word press @ Zen Actions.

6 Comments

Patti Moore Wilson, wednesdayschild2 · March 1, 2018 at 8:49 pm

Beautiful, real, honest…thank you…so much…

Anonymous · March 2, 2018 at 1:34 am

Beautiful

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