I Am Aftermath

It doesn’t matter

what I call myself,

what I see in the mirror,

how I was raised,

what I learned,

what I was taught,

what name I was given,

who my father and mother were,

what I breathed growing up,

what music I heard growing up,

what fires I sheltered beside,

what drums I felt,

what I did while screaming back at insults,

what I fought or how I fought,

what claims I made or make,

what scars all this has left,

it doesn’t matter;

my existence is proof of genocide;

I should change my name to Aftermath;

I should forget myself.


Tony Brown

Poet from Worcester, MA, USA. I write on politics, spirituality, and often on my mixed Mescalero Apache/Italian heritage. Poetry blog here on Wordpress at "Dark Matter."

8 Comments

Create Space · February 7, 2018 at 10:40 pm

This is beautifully written, thought provoking…very deep. I beg to differ…I don’t think you should forget yourself though…I think you should be proud of all you have overcome, all that makes you an awesome Aftermath! Keep writing and sharing!

    Tony Brown · February 7, 2018 at 10:49 pm

    Thank you.

    In general, at my age, I’m fine with who I am. But many people who are of mixed-race background have moments of completely not fitting in anywhere that can be unsettling at the least and lead to such thoughts of self-loathing. They don’t go away, those moments…I think it’s important to acknowledge them as I have here.

      Create Space · February 7, 2018 at 11:55 pm

      Very true Tony it is important to acknowledge the thoughts and feelings and I didn’t mean to undermine that, rather to acknowledge the resillience. Best wishes.

        Tony Brown · February 7, 2018 at 11:56 pm

        Thanks. No offense taken, just clarifying for other readers.

Raven ❤️ · February 8, 2018 at 2:44 am

Amazing poem, thank you. Look forward to reading more

Anonymous · February 12, 2018 at 1:43 pm

This is beautiful/

    Anonymous · February 12, 2018 at 8:18 pm

    Thank you.

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