We have to write a list of all the good things,
Look over it again and again to keep away the tears.
And salty lines are running down from your eyes anyway
But I’m here and I’ll hold your hand through this fucking fear.
This wonderful life could never come without some heart ache,
And what I love about you most if how hard you feel.
You’ve been so strong almost every day just for my sake,
But now I’ll hold your heart and keep it safe while you heal.
And my heart hurts, and my chest feels like it’s caving,
Taken a hundred breaths but haven’t breathed out yet
And my shoulders wet as you lean against it shaking
And the weight of it all is really sinking in.
But somehow in this little shitty moment,
I hold you, and I’ve never loved you more.
And even though my heart feels like it’s breaking
I know your touch will forever keep it warm.
And the gasping cries and the snotty sobs spill over.
And the moment really just gets a bit too much.
And even in the pain I am so thankful:
How lucky are we to have found each other’s touch.
I’ll love you in the dark times and despite the distance.
And I’ll still wake up each day and crawl to get to you.
And even when it’s crashing down upon us,
I know we’ll look back someday and say ‘we grew.’